"Love without sobriety"

Does the perception of love evolve with time, or does it prevail?

Memory is a tenuous thing, don't you think? Like a camera with a failing lens, sometimes your focus is so sharp it hurts you. Other times, it gets so vague, so blur, you'd wish you could remember more.

I find it funny though, how I can still believe the improbable. It's false hope? Maybe. Sometimes, when we really look for something to believe in, and start ridiculous speculations, it's only cause we know that something is missing from our life, and thus, we'd do anything to fill that hole.

Thing is, if what we put in is 'ridiculous/unrealistic' , the hole is only temporarily filled and when it IS empty again, the pain just gets worse. And maybe the hole even gets bigger.

So that's why I have to snap out of it.

P.S. I hope you understand, I'm not your last resort. Stop it with all the dalliance.