I don't know how to say this. Heck. I don't know how to start.

So, two months passed. Everyone started breaking up, cliques, bestfs. But you were always there. But then I realized I was only there when I felt like it. I wish everything could be like it was before, just snap, and time rewinds. But it hardly works that way. I can apologize and say I miss you over and over, meaning it. But I know its true, i didn't lose you as my good friend, i gave you up. I say it's your fault, but then again, it's just me. All because I've given up trying. All because it doesn't seem worth it anymore.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry for hurting you, I'm sorry for being so conditional. Now I can't even start a proper conversation with you. It hurts when we sit together but I can't find the right words. When I don't have a clue what you're saying.

I know what I've done, i feel just downright foolish. Downright foolish.
I don't expect this to change anything but I'll still love you.

What you had then, what you lacked then.
What you have now and what you lack.
I'll keep to that.

So wrong, yet so right.
So near, yet so far.
What should I do, you tell me, what should I do?